demiurgos_girl | [Video]

[Elaine had flown out high, happy to be rid of the underground shelter, and is now standing at the top of a ruined skyscraper. She looks pale- and there's a thin layer of sweat on her forehead. The wind whips her hair and clothes, the feathers of her wings, and stings her eyes as she looks far out toward the glowing lake.]

I've been lonely before. I've had a role to fill, or responsibilities to play out, sometimes things I look back on and I regret, so much. [She huffs, her expression softening quite a bit, eyes downcast.] But I know personal responsibility, too. There are some things I... [She shakes her head, kicks at a piece of debris to send it flying off the building.] It's one thing to be a part of something, and another to be that something. I've always been me- and I like who I am. I've never been in love, or I have, maybe, but that's mine. Whether it's in my future or past, or whatever, it's something sacred to me. [She lays her hands over her heart, one on top of the other.]

And it's sacred because it means something only to me. Call it selfish, but- [She shrugs, letting her hands drop to her side. She doesn't know what else to call it.]

[With another glance toward the lake, she turns to face the camera now, tilting her head to keep her hair from being blown over her face.] ...I haven't seen Jack, this whole time. Where- If you know where he is, please. I don't want to think that he-... He's my friend. And he gets lonely enough even without the events. [She bites her lip, blinks.]

[Suddenly coming back to her senses, she folds her arms in front of her and a blankness takes over her expression. She's talking so much more than she thought she would, but she's lonely, and here it seems like she's talking only to the sky. And speaking of that- she looks to the side, where just a part of the giant on the horizon can be seen.] Rei, I think we need to talk.

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ISN'T IT GOOD IF HE WENT HOME?
HE HAS WIGGLERS, DOESN'T HE?

Yeah. Of course it is. I don't think he was ever really happy here.

[Another message follows quickly after the first.]

so thats it then/

UNLESS HE COMES BACK, I GUESS SO.
FUCKING GOOD FOR HIM IF HE DOESN'T.
I GUESS.

thats so easy to say

That's notfair. Sorry.

YOU WANT ME TO SAY "OH BOO HOO HUMAN CRYING NOISES, JACK IS GONE, I'LL MISS HIM SO MUCH, WHY THE FUCK DOES THE UNIVERSE HATE ME AND LEAVE ME HERE?"
I'M NOT GOING TO DO THAT.

[She was totally crying and he struck a nerve.]

dammit karkat cant you be nice to me for once?its not like i want to

i said i was sorry

I WASN'T TRYING TO BE MEAN.

[She knows, and part of her already knows that she's being a bit immature and a moody. But it's so much easier to be angry right now. Her reply comes much later than usual.]

I know.

I'll talk to you later Karkat. I don't think I'll say the right things right now.

HANG ON.
LOOK, I ALWAYS STICK MY FOOT DOWN MY WINDHOLE BUT
FUCK
JACK DIDN'T WANT TO BE HERE. I DO. SO WHEN I LEAVE, OR WHEN ONE OF THE OTHER TROLLS LEAVES, THEN BE SAD, OKAY?
IT'S NOT WORTH IT TO BE SAD FOR SOMEONE WHO WOULD HAVE BEEN HAPPY IF HE REMEMBERED.

[She replies much later again, and she knows this is going to sound pathetic, but...] I'm feeling a little sorry for me, actually.

Selfish, remember? But I don't want him back here... I just want to cry a little bit.

YEAH.
OKAY, I GUESS I CAN UNDERSTAND THAT.
NOT THAT I DO THAT CRYING THING MYSELF BUT
OKAY, I'M GOING TO STOP BEFORE I CHOKE MYSELF HERE.
I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER, ELAINE.

Thanks. I'll talk to you later.

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