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Elaine Belloc ([personal profile] demiurgos_girl) wrote2011-09-05 02:29 pm
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[Elaine had flown out high, happy to be rid of the underground shelter, and is now standing at the top of a ruined skyscraper. She looks pale- and there's a thin layer of sweat on her forehead. The wind whips her hair and clothes, the feathers of her wings, and stings her eyes as she looks far out toward the glowing lake.]

I've been lonely before. I've had a role to fill, or responsibilities to play out, sometimes things I look back on and I regret, so much. [She huffs, her expression softening quite a bit, eyes downcast.] But I know personal responsibility, too. There are some things I... [She shakes her head, kicks at a piece of debris to send it flying off the building.] It's one thing to be a part of something, and another to be that something. I've always been me- and I like who I am. I've never been in love, or I have, maybe, but that's mine. Whether it's in my future or past, or whatever, it's something sacred to me. [She lays her hands over her heart, one on top of the other.]

And it's sacred because it means something only to me. Call it selfish, but- [She shrugs, letting her hands drop to her side. She doesn't know what else to call it.]

[With another glance toward the lake, she turns to face the camera now, tilting her head to keep her hair from being blown over her face.] ...I haven't seen Jack, this whole time. Where- If you know where he is, please. I don't want to think that he-... He's my friend. And he gets lonely enough even without the events. [She bites her lip, blinks.]

[Suddenly coming back to her senses, she folds her arms in front of her and a blankness takes over her expression. She's talking so much more than she thought she would, but she's lonely, and here it seems like she's talking only to the sky. And speaking of that- she looks to the side, where just a part of the giant on the horizon can be seen.] Rei, I think we need to talk.

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 02:57 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry. And I wish it hadn't ended like this.

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
That made me laugh.

Miracles don't work like that where I'm from. It sounds different.

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[identity profile] forevercapslock.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
YOU WANT ME TO SAY "OH BOO HOO HUMAN CRYING NOISES, JACK IS GONE, I'LL MISS HIM SO MUCH, WHY THE FUCK DOES THE UNIVERSE HATE ME AND LEAVE ME HERE?"
I'M NOT GOING TO DO THAT.

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:01 am (UTC)(link)
Like what? Fighting?

I didn't know your brother was here. You probably shouldn't wander too far.

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[identity profile] messiahisme.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:01 am (UTC)(link)
HoNk HoNk.

HoW dO mIrAcLeS wOrK fOr YoU tHeN?

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[identity profile] second-first.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:01 am (UTC)(link)
This was always going to be the way it ended for one of us.

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
[She was totally crying and he struck a nerve.]

dammit karkat cant you be nice to me for once?its not like i want to

i said i was sorry

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
For one of you? What do you mean?

[Well, she never believed in predestination, or fate. And she certainly doesn't want to believe it now.]

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:07 am (UTC)(link)
They're rare, so not everyone can have one.

Or they aren't rare, but in that case they're not exactly something people think is sacred anymore.

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[identity profile] urnewkingbitch.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
hey if im going down id rather not just roll over and let them
sides i still have shit to do and friends to babysit

yeah
hes older than me
we wont just wanting to stretch our legs and see what went down

so
wings huh

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[identity profile] second-first.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:10 am (UTC)(link)
The first was killed.

I died in battle.

The third merged with Lilith.

If she hadn't, the fourth would. Or the fifth. However many of us it took.

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[identity profile] forevercapslock.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:11 am (UTC)(link)





I WASN'T TRYING TO BE MEAN.

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:13 am (UTC)(link)
I didn't mean it was a bad thing. I was just curious. I don't know how I want to die, but protecting friends sounds alright.

Not that I want to die, obviously.

I think world war 3 is an understatement at this point. Have you looked up at the sky?
[Although it's rhetorical- she doubts anyone could miss that gigantic version of Rei.]

Yeah. I guess you haven't seen them before?

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:14 am (UTC)(link)
[She shakes her head, disgusted.] To make this happen? Why? Who would want to?

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[identity profile] second-first.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:16 am (UTC)(link)
Seele.

Commander Ikari.

Maybe others.

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:17 am (UTC)(link)
[She knows, and part of her already knows that she's being a bit immature and a moody. But it's so much easier to be angry right now. Her reply comes much later than usual.]

I know.

I'll talk to you later Karkat. I don't think I'll say the right things right now.

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[identity profile] urnewkingbitch.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:18 am (UTC)(link)
yeah well im a tenacious motherfucker regardless
but i wouldnt mind being happy before i went up to the giant concert in the sky
shit ive still got a lot more years ahead of me
no way am i dying at 13 fuck that

dying sucks
generally speaking

yeah what the hell is that???

oh yeah
seen them on birds insects an orange ghosty me
not really on anybody else

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
So they were lonely or something, and the whole world suffered for it?

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
You're only thirteen Dave? I didn't know that.

A friend. She's somewhere here. This is her world, I think.

I got them from my father. You could say it's a family trait.

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[identity profile] urnewkingbitch.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
yep
what did you think i was out of curiosity

wow
well shit that makes me wonder what my earth is looking like

touchy subject?

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[identity profile] forevercapslock.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
HANG ON.
LOOK, I ALWAYS STICK MY FOOT DOWN MY WINDHOLE BUT
FUCK
JACK DIDN'T WANT TO BE HERE. I DO. SO WHEN I LEAVE, OR WHEN ONE OF THE OTHER TROLLS LEAVES, THEN BE SAD, OKAY?
IT'S NOT WORTH IT TO BE SAD FOR SOMEONE WHO WOULD HAVE BEEN HAPPY IF HE REMEMBERED.

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[identity profile] second-first.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
I do not know.

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[identity profile] paper-knight.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:39 am (UTC)(link)
I'm hoping it means he went home.

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:54 am (UTC)(link)
[Another pause on her end, although this one is very looong.]

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:57 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe fifteen or sixteen. I guess all the swearing helped. It doesn't really matter.

Was it in trouble when you left?

Not really. Family is, sometimes, but the wings aren't. And I wouldn't even say that family is touchy, more like extremely problematic.

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