[Accidental Video]

[demiurgos_girl]

Elaine doesn't know what to wish for. It bothers her in a way she can't put into words. There had to be something right? But everything she wanted was out of her reach, even in her own imagination. Any Lucifer she imagined would never live up to the real thing. Any Mona, or Michael. For the entire of the event so far, her room remained bare.

So she sits cross-legged in her room, lost in thought, returning to previous themes. And though there are a lot of things she can't imagine, there is something she's imagined well enough before.

A wind ruffles her hair. She looks up, surprised, eyes refocusing as though she had been looking a long way away. From somewhere comes the rustling sound of leaves in a wind, of water trickling down a stream. And then flowers start to fall around her, slowly, each one an intricate and beautiful thing, the star of its own show.

"Autumn." She catches one bud, looks at it, delicately holds it to her nose. She smiles, eyes closed.

"Autumn in Mhairi."

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[demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com]

I wanted to protect it. But I wanted to stay alive too. It hurt, what she did to me. I gave up a lot for... for nothing. Because it's what my conscience wanted me to do. [She's sort of staring at the flower now, and she knows she's not being crystal clear. But she needs to get this off her chest.]

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[jivitadana.livejournal.com]

[Minato listened and remained silent, letting her express whatever she needed to. He was in no rush, and Elaine needed the time. He knew that sometimes protecting something so precious came at a cost, just as he had said that everything did have its price. Still, it reminded him that some of the mirrors could be cruel, but he didn't think they would be this cruel.]

[video]

[demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com]

That's what I meant about freedom. [Though her voice isn't shaky, she looks like it should be.] I gave up mine for my sense of responsibility. And I should feel proud, but I don't. Maybe that will come after, when the memory of it is gone. Or maybe I never will, because Mhairi's dead anyway. [She stops, takes a breath, trying to reign in her emotions.]

[video]

[jivitadana.livejournal.com]

... It's never completely gone if you remember it.

[It didn't matter. It didn't matter that the Mansion threatened to steal away their memories. It could force them to physically change, mentally alter them temporarily, but he was going to try with everything he had to remember everything from home. He hoped that none of her memories were taken away, and he could only hope that no one else would lose any other important memories either.]

You don't regret the decisions you've made, do you? [He might not have known what they were or if there were any. He only asked just to know, but also didn't want to pry.]

[video]

[demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com]

[She considers his question very carefully, taking several seconds.] ...No, I don't regret it. I just thought it would feel better. It would have been worse to do anything else.

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[jivitadana.livejournal.com]

As you said, you might feel differently later. small>[If there was anything he had to remember was that he shouldn't have any regrets, and neither should anyone else.]

If you have no regrets, then it was probably the best decision.

[video] so late im sorry

[demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I did say that.

I know it is. I can think it to myself. It just doesn't feel like it yet.

[video] that's okay! i'm sorry for my HTML fail DX

[jivitadana.livejournal.com]

It'll take time. It'll be better.

[There was the pain of losing something so close. They knew that everything did come with a price, but it didn't mean that it hadn't hurt or wasn't painful when they paid it.]