demiurgos_girl: (Everything had to be wrapped in words.)
Elaine Belloc ([personal profile] demiurgos_girl) wrote2011-05-25 12:51 am

[Accidental Video]

Elaine doesn't know what to wish for. It bothers her in a way she can't put into words. There had to be something right? But everything she wanted was out of her reach, even in her own imagination. Any Lucifer she imagined would never live up to the real thing. Any Mona, or Michael. For the entire of the event so far, her room remained bare.

So she sits cross-legged in her room, lost in thought, returning to previous themes. And though there are a lot of things she can't imagine, there is something she's imagined well enough before.

A wind ruffles her hair. She looks up, surprised, eyes refocusing as though she had been looking a long way away. From somewhere comes the rustling sound of leaves in a wind, of water trickling down a stream. And then flowers start to fall around her, slowly, each one an intricate and beautiful thing, the star of its own show.

"Autumn." She catches one bud, looks at it, delicately holds it to her nose. She smiles, eyes closed.

"Autumn in Mhairi."

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[identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com 2011-06-03 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
... It's never completely gone if you remember it.

[It didn't matter. It didn't matter that the Mansion threatened to steal away their memories. It could force them to physically change, mentally alter them temporarily, but he was going to try with everything he had to remember everything from home. He hoped that none of her memories were taken away, and he could only hope that no one else would lose any other important memories either.]

You don't regret the decisions you've made, do you? [He might not have known what they were or if there were any. He only asked just to know, but also didn't want to pry.]

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[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-06-03 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
[She considers his question very carefully, taking several seconds.] ...No, I don't regret it. I just thought it would feel better. It would have been worse to do anything else.

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[identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com 2011-06-03 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
As you said, you might feel differently later. small>[If there was anything he had to remember was that he shouldn't have any regrets, and neither should anyone else.]

If you have no regrets, then it was probably the best decision.

[video] so late im sorry

[identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com 2011-06-06 04:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah. I did say that.

I know it is. I can think it to myself. It just doesn't feel like it yet.

[video] that's okay! i'm sorry for my HTML fail DX

[identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com 2011-06-06 06:48 pm (UTC)(link)
It'll take time. It'll be better.

[There was the pain of losing something so close. They knew that everything did come with a price, but it didn't mean that it hadn't hurt or wasn't painful when they paid it.]