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Elaine doesn't know what to wish for. It bothers her in a way she can't put into words. There had to be something right? But everything she wanted was out of her reach, even in her own imagination. Any Lucifer she imagined would never live up to the real thing. Any Mona, or Michael. For the entire of the event so far, her room remained bare.

So she sits cross-legged in her room, lost in thought, returning to previous themes. And though there are a lot of things she can't imagine, there is something she's imagined well enough before.

A wind ruffles her hair. She looks up, surprised, eyes refocusing as though she had been looking a long way away. From somewhere comes the rustling sound of leaves in a wind, of water trickling down a stream. And then flowers start to fall around her, slowly, each one an intricate and beautiful thing, the star of its own show.

"Autumn." She catches one bud, looks at it, delicately holds it to her nose. She smiles, eyes closed.

"Autumn in Mhairi."

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on 2011-05-25 02:40 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com
[OOC: Semi-placeholder! I'm still threading with our other thread too, I'm just slow today.

Minato was still sporting his butterfly wings, and they rested flat out against his back. All of his friends had really vivid imaginations.]


It's beautiful.

... I wanted to thank you for the other day, Elaine.

[He flew before, or rather he had floated up before while at home, but he never experienced anything quite like flying with wings.]

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on 2011-05-25 03:21 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com
I miss it. [She puts aside the bud.]

You're welcome, Minato. I had fun, too.

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on 2011-05-25 05:41 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com
Mn. Understandable.

[He really had been grateful to her. There was no way he could pass up on the chance to fly, to do something that seemed impossible to do on a normal basis.]

Flying is something you normally can do, correct?

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on 2011-05-25 06:17 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com
...It'll be gone again after the event.

Yeah. [She smiles.] It's one of my favorite things in the whole world.

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on 2011-05-25 07:41 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com
But it's here now. There's that.

[He smiled too.] I can see why. You feel free when you do?

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on 2011-05-30 03:03 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com
Yeah... It was really beautiful. I should have shown someone...

As free as I could possibly be.

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on 2011-05-31 02:57 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com
Maybe there will be a chance later.

I think that counts for a lot.

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on 2011-05-31 03:00 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com
To show people? What do you mean?

...What did you feel?

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on 2011-05-31 05:35 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com
Mn. To show people. Like you are now.

[He smiled at that a tiny bit more.]

The same way. Free. Or feeling like I can do anything.

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on 2011-05-31 07:21 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com
But once the event is done... I just hate to think that Mhairi's just a memory now. Something imagined. [She catches more falling flowers, before the scene fades away.]


[One flower remains intact, however, and she holds it delicately.]
Freedom is the... [She sighs, looks up at the ceiling.]

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on 2011-06-01 02:46 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com
But you've created it before, just the planet itself, right?

And is what...?

[She trailed off, and Minato had been curious as to how she was going to finish her statement. But if she didn't finish it, he also didn't mind. Talking about it couldn't have been easy either.]

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on 2011-06-01 04:30 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com
[She shakes her head.] If I did that again, it wouldn't be the same.

[The thought is too difficult to put into words, though she stumbles through it haltingly, the idea deep enough that she doesn't want to let it go.] It's the... price of things. Freedom of movement is fine. Easy. But even then you give up security for it. Other freedoms cost more.

You can look at things you do and you are, and ask yourself, how much freedom is this worth giving up for?

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on 2011-06-01 03:43 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com
Because you're creating it anew?

[Minato considered her words for a moment.]

Everything comes at a price. Freedom is one of them. But everything should also be in moderation too.

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on 2011-06-02 12:56 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com
Yeah.

I know. But... sometime's it's... I didn't have to die, you know. [And suddenly this is all coming out in a rush.] I could have let Mhairi die. If I did, I would have gotten my powers back, and I could have fought my mirror off, probably. But Mhairi was... mine. I couldn't let it die.

And I died for it instead.

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on 2011-06-02 03:50 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com
[Minato hadn't expected to hear that.]

... There isn't anything wrong in dying for what you wanted to protect.

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on 2011-06-02 04:02 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com
I wanted to protect it. But I wanted to stay alive too. It hurt, what she did to me. I gave up a lot for... for nothing. Because it's what my conscience wanted me to do. [She's sort of staring at the flower now, and she knows she's not being crystal clear. But she needs to get this off her chest.]

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on 2011-06-02 05:04 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com
[Minato listened and remained silent, letting her express whatever she needed to. He was in no rush, and Elaine needed the time. He knew that sometimes protecting something so precious came at a cost, just as he had said that everything did have its price. Still, it reminded him that some of the mirrors could be cruel, but he didn't think they would be this cruel.]

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on 2011-06-03 01:14 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com
That's what I meant about freedom. [Though her voice isn't shaky, she looks like it should be.] I gave up mine for my sense of responsibility. And I should feel proud, but I don't. Maybe that will come after, when the memory of it is gone. Or maybe I never will, because Mhairi's dead anyway. [She stops, takes a breath, trying to reign in her emotions.]

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on 2011-06-03 01:40 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com
... It's never completely gone if you remember it.

[It didn't matter. It didn't matter that the Mansion threatened to steal away their memories. It could force them to physically change, mentally alter them temporarily, but he was going to try with everything he had to remember everything from home. He hoped that none of her memories were taken away, and he could only hope that no one else would lose any other important memories either.]

You don't regret the decisions you've made, do you? [He might not have known what they were or if there were any. He only asked just to know, but also didn't want to pry.]

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on 2011-06-03 01:54 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com
[She considers his question very carefully, taking several seconds.] ...No, I don't regret it. I just thought it would feel better. It would have been worse to do anything else.

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on 2011-06-03 03:06 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com
As you said, you might feel differently later. small>[If there was anything he had to remember was that he shouldn't have any regrets, and neither should anyone else.]

If you have no regrets, then it was probably the best decision.

[video] so late im sorry

on 2011-06-06 04:44 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] demiurgos-girl.livejournal.com
Yeah. I did say that.

I know it is. I can think it to myself. It just doesn't feel like it yet.
Posted by [identity profile] jivitadana.livejournal.com
It'll take time. It'll be better.

[There was the pain of losing something so close. They knew that everything did come with a price, but it didn't mean that it hadn't hurt or wasn't painful when they paid it.]

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